I swear we're not Santa

Day cannot prevail forver, night often interrupts and blankets the sky
Flowers that once were in full bloom will shrivel and die
We should never find comfort in our lives
For change will rip it all apart
The life you've known to love and savour
Will not last forever
I know it's hard to hear

The days you thought will always be
will soon seem minute in the past
Though at different ends of the world
I know one thing will forever last
When I'm cold, alone and depressed
When I think that God's given me too hard a test
The fact that I've got you cheering me on
Puts my mind at rest

Though some questions frighten me greatly
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
Will you reminisce about me?
Can we really hold on?
I guess only time can tell
Since we control so little of our fate
But that's no excuse to give up and die
Never is ever too late

Hello, readers =)

We're tired of unappreciative custards. So us Panatzorists would like to introduce the 'Feel-good' project which is aimed at making you more appreciative of the wonderful (yes, wonderful) life you are living, and also to make you less suicidal and depressed.

So what's it about?

It's simple. All you have to do is write up a post about what you believe to be your positive qualities, and the things you appreciate in life. Don't be falsely humble and say, "but I don't have any positive qualities!" Please. We all know that's not true; there's something beautiful in everyone.

There are no limits to this post. It can contain only one good trait about yourself, or even two million good qualities. It's entirely up to you. You can add on to the list from time to time. So whenever you're feeling depressed, suicidal, and want to give up, turn to your 'feel-good' post and be reminded of the things which make you smile, and hopefully you'll realise how valuable your life really is.

Other people won't be able to judge the contents of your 'feel-good' post because hey, it's your blog and your opinion. As long as you don't put other people down in the process, your post will only serve to show how much you love yourself, and how awesomely confident you are. Those who judge are just jealous losers =)



Oh, and if you don't have a blog/are too embarrassed to post it up, you can just write it in your diary (or a piece of scrap paper even) and keep it somewhere safe and easily accessible so you can read it whenever you feel like it =)



We encourage everyone to take part in this project; it is fun, and it may save your life.



p/s: make sure to link this post in your 'feel-good' post so others can read and take part. Oh, and tag us with your link if you've done it, thanks! =D





with love,

Panatzorists.

Don't mind the title, Nisah punya pasal... Aku jeles kamu buat long posts. I feel so left out :'( Anyway, since I've already written that oh-so-vulgar word as my title, might as well go along with it.

Ladies and germs, I will now talk about that little thingy thing between your legs. If there is a slight chance that you are weirded out by talking about people's body parts (like Sarah) then you're welcome to leave here.

For the rest of you who actually have the guts to read this... You guys got issues.

I'm not going to go all technical about the parts but more of what it represents. What is expected of us based on our beloved reproductive organs. Let's begin shall we.

Let me give you a background check on yours truly, I'm the only daughter in the family; squished between two older brothers and two younger brothers. So it's not a surprise, how I was (am?) confused about how I should eat, walk, talk and carry myself. Sure I got my mum and she's a girl but you know how it is; I, like many others look up to my older siblings for guidance, for conformity of how I should face the world.

So I mimicked my brothers as much as I could, what they wore, so did I. What they said, I repeated. Life seemed easy till I got to primary 5. I ended up in an all girls school and soon realised that burping out loud and scratching your back side in public is 'unlady like'. That was when all the stereotypical crap kicked in.

I was repeatedly reminded that boys are stronger than girls. Boys are smarter than girls. Boys are far more important. They are the producers, the protectors, the leaders. Girls on the other hand are merely created for entertainment purposes. Reproduction, cooking, washing, child raising and such. For a period of time I actually gave in to this 'fact of life'. Until I grew brains of my own and decided that, what the fuck. This ain't right.

We girls do 'have balls'. Not in a literal I've-got-dangly-bits-between-my-legs kinda way, but we have the courage to stand up for ourselves. We have the guts to go out there and prove our ancestors wrong. Sure we cook and clean, but we are capable of so many other things. Anything a boy can do, so can we... In fact, we might even be better than them at it!

So please... Your future isn't determined by what's between your legs. Its what's between your ears that make all the difference.

They say backstabbing is bad. They say backstabbing is being a fake, two-faced, hypocritical bitch, and that the action is simply MEAN.

I disagree.

Before I go any further, I would like to apologise in advance if I hurt anyone's feelings, and to state that this entire post is based on my opinions alone. You may disagree, but I don't honestly give a damn.

To backstab is to talk of the faults of others behind their backs. In popular malay terms, this act is known as 'mengumpat'.

Everywhere, I hear people say that they hate backstabbers, or two-faced bitches, but I honestly, honestly say that I have never met a person who has never backstabbed a person in their lives.

Yes kamu, I backstab too.

And so do you. Jangantah eksen.

Anyway, point of this post. I don't think that backstabbing is entirely bad, actually. Because I know that different people have different opinions about things. So to me, backstabbing is just a way of voicing out their opinions on a certain person, without intending to hurt that person with their comments.

(Backstabbing is different from spreading ugly rumours)

Dapan-dapan, the backstabber is nice to the backstabbee, and doesn't do things to intentionally hurt him/her. In my opinion, I'd rather pretend I like you, rather than hate you and pick a fight with you in front of everyone else. Because if I backstab a person, it doesn't necessarily mean that I hate him/her; I just dislike some of his/her qualities. Even if I backstab about her (yes, pakai 'her' saja because I bitch about girls more than I do guys, lol), it does not indicate that I want to embarrass her and ruin her life! Inda jua ku sampai hati.

I guess I don't really mind if people backstab about me because I do the same to them. So they don't like you much. So what? Sticks and stones may break your bones but words will never hurt you. You're not perfect, you can't please everyone. Guess what? They're not perfect either. So rather than hold back your acidic opinions, why not confide in someone you trust? And kamu, if someone shares their bitchy comments about others with you, jangantah cari pasal kan menyampaikan those words to the person. Traitors are worse than backstabbers.


So what do you think?


Agatah bitching pasal aku and my inability to susun ayat properly (: Kirim salam ia, bitching partner mu ah.

Since no one's updating, I'm going to. With a topic very close to my heart and I'm sure, yours too.

Asses.

There was a time where everywhere I turn I can hear someone going, "Ass nya tight ah. Rawrrr." It was a very dark time for me because:
(a) I can't go "rawr" properly.
(b) I don't see the fascination with asses.

People don't say that ALL the time now since kan puasa kali. Karang kurang pahala or something.o that's a good thing but once in a while, they do and I never know what to say.

According to wikipedia, asses/buttocks are formed by the masses of the gluteal muscles or 'glutes superimposed by a layer of fat. The buttocks allow primates to sit upright without needing to rest their weight on their feet as four-legged animals do.

Okay, so it helps us look superior to most animals. What does that have to do with someone's sexual appearance (seriously, there has to be a word for it)? I mean, seriously. Is it our primate (primatal?) instinct? Like baboons; they use their bums to attract the other gender.

Fascinated with asses is one thing and saying that it's tight is another. How do you even know that it is, in fact, tight? Do you squeeze them? I asked someone this and she said "Yes, I suppose." Okay, you squeeze asses. Of random strangers/celebrities/your schoolmates? She didn't have an answer for that.

Do you have to have this power to know if it's tight?

What is the use of tight asses in your relationship?

I would really appreciate it if someone could answer some of the questions in this post. If no one answers at least one, I will lose all faith in humanity. Oh, and thanks if there is an answer.

Now that that's off my chest and school's tomorrow, I'm going to start doing all my work now. Adios.

ps: Offended? Call 1-800-don't-kill-me.

Because I think she's the sweetest girl alive (and I want to tell the whole world how awesome SHE is). If she was a guy, I'd have 512387654218 of her kids by now from raping her.

You can never get tired of her. She always has something to talk about and I always look forward to that because it's usually the most interesting thing I'll hear the whole day or even week.

She would listen to your complaints and when she's sure you're done, she'll tell you what she thinks and say something that would comfort you that no one else even thought of.

Sure, sometimes it won't calm you down but she'd listen to your rants once again and, most of the time, won't try to change your mind about it if she knows you are determined to stand on your ground. Unlike everyone else.

She'd think for days over a question you asked in a passing. This is ridiculous but I secretly love it.

The best thing about her is that she's direct. She won't beat around the bush. She'd go straight to the point. You can always tell where you're standing in her mind. With other people (or the majority of it anyway), you'd have to read between the lines and not miss a single thing to find out what they think of you.

Plus, she always says things that make us go "awwwww <3".

I used to be scared of her but I've come to admire and love her. When I grow up, I want to be just like Wana.

Because I want to tell the world how awesome you guys are.

Things I love about:-

* Nisah

1) I can talk about life and random monstrosities with her.

2) She's not self-conscious about her looks.

3) She never gets tired of me ( I think...)

* Zati

1) She's gorgeous (If I hang out with her, maybe some of it will rub onto me)

2) She's smart and doesn't mind explaining to me stuff that I don't understand.

3) She's the best listener in the world.

* Sarah

1) She motivates me to be a better person.

2) She's amusing to be around.

3) She doesn't mind being seen with me even though I am pretty much at the bottom of the social ladder.

<3